Beloved Heart family
I have emerged out of the 49 day solitary retreat. It was an incredible blessing to receive this opportunity. I didn’t have much time to think as it presented itself only 10 days before the retreat started. I was simply at the right place at the right time. It was like a flower opening, a feeling of readiness, the divine was speaking to me through intuition and synchronicities that the moment was ripe to embark on a deep inner journey. I surrendered and opened to the invitation with deep gratitude.
St Teresa of Avila says; Remember: If you want to make progress on the path and ascend to the places you have longed for, the important thing is NOT to think much, but to LOVE much and so to do whatever AWAKENS you to LOVE!
For most of my life, I have been a seeker of Truth and Love. I desperately wanted to unravel all the lies I had been told about who I am and how I should be in the society to fit into a structure that was killing my heart.
I was a rebel at school from a very young age. Something in me was furious at all the lies from my parents and other people in authority, like the church and the school system. I was SO angry! I used to get in trouble all the time and was expelled from high school.
I was told that God lives in a cloud up in the sky and that I am born a sinner. As children, we are so deeply connected to the truth. We are spontaneous and joyful, we let life pass through us deeply present in the moment as it is and then we let it die into the next. We ask important existential question about who we are and where we are from, who is God? But we are being fed one lie after the other by a society that has numbed itself with pizza, television, beer and barbeque.
It was something I simply could not tolerate! And with immense loving grace, the divine intelligence operates in such a way that when the soul cries out for truth, one will be guided to that which will help us open to it. My soul has been on fire, screaming, and so I have been blessed with many such opportunities. Some have been soft and gentle and others shocking and terrifying.
As I came out of the 49 day retreat Goddess Tara Ma embraced me with her endless love and compassion. This weekend I sat in a powerful Tara retreat with sisters and brothers deeply dedicated to awakening these aspects of the divine within ourselves.
Green Tara is a deep inspiration to me and a force very much needed in the world today. She is the force of compassion in action and her posture has a deep symbolism. Her left leg is folded in a contemplative posture indicating that she has deep wisdom from meditation and contemplation, from knowing her own true nature – the TRUE reality of being.
It is important to understand that we are beyond form, to let go of identification with the personality, thinking that I am my name, my emotions and my thoughts and Tara helps us discover that we are LOVE. Her right leg is outstretched, ready to spring into action out of compassion.
Compassion means to suffer together and she is inviting us to let our hearts be shattered by it. To feel it, to not run away from it, but embracing it. 'Your suffering is my suffering'.
The dance of Truth and Love. My prayer is that I will continue to be broken open, that my heart opens so wide that the earth falls in.
I send you my dear Divine Soul sister and brother so much love, thank you for being part of this journey. May we continue to stay inspired and on fire for Truth and Love, and be active participants for healing pain and suffering on this magical earth unconditionally holding and embracing us.
OM TARE TUTTARE TURE SVAHA